be brave

I was the bravest when I terminated my pregnancy alone. At the time I hated that I was alone, but it is what it is. We couldn’t afford for Him to miss work, and with Covid, he wasn’t allowed in the doctor’s office. So, I went alone. I knew what they were going to say. The baby wasn’t developing, and I had to end it. I was not prepared for them to tell me he was a boy though. I hated that I was alone in that moment, but it is what it is. I didn’t want to end it, but I did it. I did it to protect my baby, to protect me. I made my first and last major decision as a mother and I was brave as fuck.