i will cut everyone off

I want to write about how I will beat someone’s skull in with a baseball bat or hang someone’s bones as a wind chime from my fire escape.

And all the other badass threats I can think of.

But honestly, I’ve been doing it.

I’ve been fighting for this life for years.

I will just keep doing it.

There are people in life that just get gut punched often.

No reason, no order, it just happens.

Life bitch slaps you and doesn’t give you other options outside of die, or do hard shit.

I do hard shit.

I have created my own spoonfuls of sugar but medicine still tastes like anal leakage juice.

And sometimes, after you swallow it, you burp it up later for another round of bad taste.

So I will, just keep fighting as if resilience is a badge I’m proud to wear.

I will still show up every day.

I will continue to laugh at all the things I shouldn’t find funny.

I will ground myself.

I will power through the nightmares.

I will continue to put on the brave face.

I will save face through the stories, I relate to so well

And let the dumb tears fall.

I will take breaks and breathe through the pain, at sometimes ignoring it completely.

I will still build women up.

And train for the battles to come.

I will keep being louder than I was the day before and I will take two steps forward every day.

I will keep doing the hard shit.

I will keep fighting for tomorrow to be better than today.