we just have to hurt

I don’t have it yet, but I will. You said this to me when we ended the most beautiful chapter of my life. When you said it, you had no idea how impactful it would be to me. I’ll get it tatted right under my black belt tattoo.

Life is life. Who knows if there’s karma or a god, or justice. I don’t know where I stand when it comes to theories of science. I logically know love is just chemicals released in your brain but so are orgasms and those feel pretty real to me. I think we are spiritual beings, but there’s a “how” behind every “what”. I don’t think there’s more good than bad in the world, but I have seen the good on a daily. I don’t understand luck. I spend a lot of mental power convincing myself everything happens for a reason. But I don’t think it does or I don’t want to.

Life isn’t fair. Life is hard for some and easy for others. People that don’t deserve it, get gut punched. Life is deep and intense and ironic. You have something perfect, just to have it taken away. You fight for freedom just to have Trump become president for a second time. You find your dream house for it to burn up in a dumpster fire. Some people just don’t get the story they want. And in life sometimes, without a why or a reason,

We just have to hurt.