No longer am I going to apologize for behavior that isn’t mine.

I won’t shield you from the consequences of your own choices.

I won’t apologize for who I had to become to be able to survive.

No longer apologizing for the versions of me I had to kill to become so hard to kill.

I won’t lower my voice or apologize for the brutality of the words I speak.

I fought for my place and I am no longer apologizing for not making myself small.

I won’t express counterfeit regret any more.

I will no longer apologize for the failed attempts at loan sharking.

I’m not going to beg someone’s pardon for not following social norms.

I’m not conforming into any box that handmaids fit into.

I won’t eat my own words or take a bite out of the humble pie.

This life isn’t real, everything’s fucked, I am human and this is fucking hard.

I’m no longer asking for forgiveness for the boundaries I set to make this fake life less hard.